two months of holiday passes so fast, my classes starting next week d...havent really get a day off to rest, coz been working and busy with church services....but this week should be the most happenning among the rest, coz i not working d, and been going out with frens almost every night...*happy*....
in this two months, things been happening around me...christmas celebration, new year, the power team, working..all these have filled my time, but not my heart...am i doing the right things?
talked to my friends, they said i have changed and they said i am running away from the problem...i am just finding an excuse for myself to hide from the problem...filling my time with works...being active n church...all her words hit into my heart...she is not a christian, but also not an anti-christian...but her words had just affected me....it makes me think that all the things i did was wrong and i shouldnt do that....am i???can someone tell me all i did is right or wrong???
besides that, there is this guy working with me had come to me and proposed to me...but i rejected him...did i do it in a right way?i felt so bad after telling him tat we cant to be together because i had an agreement with HIM that will not involve any relationship in this two years...and i really did make this agreement...but is he ok now??hope he is...really sorry...you deserve a better girl...
i really scare to commit in anymore, is not the time...i dont dare to go out too often with you, i refuse to go out...didnt reply your msg when you start to come over to close....really sorry about that. all i need now is TIME...i believe God will bring him to me when the time come, but i am sure this is not the time yet...SORRY!!!!
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