New Life

been busy for the past weeks, been doing my asssignments non stop, took a break, start writing here...lol...but not sure what to blog...nothing interesting except for the Sunday...

Last Sunday, i experience Him...He told me lots of things that i needed desperately...i never felt that peace anymore after so long..

my New Life began that day,
there is a New Way he had open for me...
leave the past, move forward...
the New Way that He had prepared for me will lead me to success...

Thank You Father.

the end of this chapter...

time to let go...yeah..mayb it should have did it since the first day..but i didnt want to coz i stil think that we can make it....but now, i cant anymore...

i cant take the hurts anymore..from him..from everyone...or from myself...times up..one month trying is the time i gave myself...since it doesnt success..so..now i just have to declare that..i fail...

thanks for everyone that had helped me..talk to me...i appreciate it very very much...

is time for me to concentrate on what i am suppose to do now...

thanks for giving the opportunity to me to have this chapther in my life..i will always remember it...and the last thing before i end it is...

Calvin, I love you. and i will stand on my own now...thanks...

can i let it all to You??

can i run away from all these??i very very tired..i cant think of anything now..my brain is stuck now...i really no confidence to continue to write...

been keep doing the assignment non-stop..from the moment i wake up until i sleep...never stop....and i have to continue will these until all my assignments are done, the next will be my exams...and is right after my last assignment...which i only left about 2 weeks to study for three ACCA exempted paper...

when is the last day coming??although i have done and summited one of my assignment...but i still worried about it until now...i dont have any confidence to what i have written it...and i still have more assignments and course works due every week to do.......

every night...working till midnight..next day continue at 6.30am...i very very tired...

Father Lord, please get me through these with You...take the wheel from my hand...i am going to let it go...

16 days...

came down..settle down..let it go..is quite easy to tell everyone that i have let it go..but after all..sitting down alone here...reflex....realising....actually havent...

for the past 16 days...not very long...i have put myself into a very very busy situations... working..study...do assignments...go out with frens...except sleeping...i had fulling filled up all the time with things....but...i still can feel it...it still hurts...it still wanna fight for the right...but i have let the chance slip off my hand..i never try to use it...but i just let it go...but i not regret...coz i still believe that this is the best for both of us...maybe this is the results which i myself need to handle...no one ecxept Him can help me through all these...

many people ask why?i dont know how to answer...or i dont dare to answer?i am very depress..whenever people ask..i just find other way to avoid them...i dont dare to bring it out again...i just have to keep it with myself....eventhough is true that will be better if i talk to someone about it...but no one know actually what happen..even there is...i just wont wanna talk about it...it really hurts..

Father, my Lord, in Jesus name, Please help me go through all these...